Random Ramblings

Putting Aside Fear

Beware; for I am fearless, and therefore powerful.”

― Mary Wollstonecraft ShelleyFrankenstein

What could I accomplish if I wasn’t worried about failure?

Last week, I did more “adulting” in SEVEN days than I do in a year. It was scary. There’s a part of me that wants someone else to take care of the unfamiliar stuff in my life. I don’t feel like I’m qualified to handle all the car related stuff I took care of: transferring titles, buying cars, making arrangements with salvage yards. If I had it my way, a “grown-up” would have handled all of it—someone more “grown-up” than me. It’s strange to wake up one morning and discover you’ve been awarded the part of this mysterious “grown-up” person who supposedly has the answers—especially since I don’t remember auditioning for the role. It’s an unfamiliar sensation to put aside the fear, and do the things that need doing, and deal with all the “feels” after the fact.

I don’t know if I will ever be “fearless.” I don’t know if it’s possible or even practical. But I think it is possible to set fear aside for a moment, like removing a pair of shoes you’ve grown accustomed to, but aren’t exactly comfortable in. I think time limits on “adulting” help. It’s rather daunting to be the adult all the time, no matter what. Sometimes it’s easier to set a timer. “I will do the things that need doing for the next 25 minutes, and then I will take a break!” Sometimes lists are good, as long as they’re not too long. Sometimes outcomes are worth more than the uncomfortable journey.

What’s keeping you away from your goals?

xo Juli

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5 thoughts on “Putting Aside Fear”

  1. My biggest obstacle is that I don’t know what my goals are… not in the big picture, anyway. With the smaller stuff, I have a LOT of trouble letting go of the fear. Doing new grown-up things scare me to death. It makes me feel pathetic… but it’s the truth. It often seems that my 10-year-old is braver than I am…

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  2. “..If I had it my way, a “grown-up” would have handled all of it—someone more “grown-up” than me…”

    YES!!! This is 100% me, too! And as a fellow “looks around for an adult when someone tells a kid to ask a grown up”, I have to say YOU GO! 😀

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    1. LOL Yes! When did WE become the grown-ups? Makes you reevaluate your childhood when you finally realize that maybe there aren’t any REAL grown-ups in this world, just a lot of people struggling along and doing the best they can.

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