Baby Steps, Fitness, Random Ramblings

Rototilling My Beliefs in 2018

Every year I make a pact with myself, "This year is going to be different." But most years turn out the same. I have my ups and downs. I wrestle with depression. I try. I fail. I have some good times, but it's hard. I feel like I'm not enough. Not good enough. Not capable… Continue reading Rototilling My Beliefs in 2018

Random Ramblings

Why do I self destruct?

I watched this video this morning and I was sobbing, literally crying on my keyboard.  I actually had to stop this video, have a good cry, then finish watching the video. I then wrote this post and sobbed some more. This video may as well have been written for me, it rang THAT true. (This is NOT one… Continue reading Why do I self destruct?

Life After Forty, Mental Health, Perimenopause, Random Ramblings

Seventy-Nine Days

I've been away from WordPress for a while. Seventy-nine days, to be precise.  Over the years, I've struggled on and off with my pet demons: Depression, Procrastination, Fear, and Perfectionism.  They're nothing new to me.  They are the enemies I've known so long, we should probably get matching coffee cups. *Like this one from The… Continue reading Seventy-Nine Days